Today marks a milestone in my writing journey. It is Publication Day for The Firefall, the third book in my Johnson and Nance series. As with the first two books, I’m over the moon. For much of my writing life, I wondered if I’d ever have a book published. And today, number three drops.
The
happy coincidence of my regular blog rotation occurring on publication day got
me wondering about what I might write to mark the event. I knew what I wanted to
say-- Buy my book! Buy my book! --but in a subtle, more indirect way.
When
responding to a short story call, I sometimes type the key words into my search
engine and follow random threads. I’ll search for these internet Easter eggs
until I land on something that strikes my fancy.
I
tried it. I entered “new book thoughts” into my computer. The search engine
processed the request. She knew that I was searching for books on “new thought.”
I got long lists of books about positive thinking and envisioning success. I promptly
exited. I was positive—I’d had a good day. And I was positive I didn’t want to
talk about other people’s books. I wanted to talk about mine.
Typing
in the words, “starting a new book,” led me to YouTube videos about writing
books, ads for publishing houses happy to make my book a reality for a small
fee, and writer’s software packages to make novel-writing a veritable breeze,
complete with a sliding bar to chart my incredible progress.
Finally,
I entered “advice for writing a book.” Various websites broke the mysterious
process of novel creation into manageable steps. The number of bite-sized steps
varied wildly. One expert chose seven, another twenty-three, and a third
settled on thirty-one. The secret sauce for writing, I determined, lay buried
in some obscure prime number. That whole search had a Dan Brownesque feel to
it. I abandoned it in three steps: point cursor, click, exit.
I
gave up. My reliable technique for shorts failed me. I began to wonder if I’d
have anything to say. (Readers may be wondering too at this point.) Fear crept
in.
The
Nigerian American writer Uzodinma Iweala said that, “Anybody who tells you
they’re not scared when starting a new book project is a very good liar.”
Perhaps
that’s what best describes my emotion today. I have a giant, joyous,
celebratory fear. I worry that people may not like The Firefall. I worry
that the publisher may lose interest. If they ask for more, I worry that I
won’t be able to find something to say. And I love having a book out there in
the world that generates all these worries.
To
combat the fear, I’ve taken the advice of Terry Pratchett. My sons and Rob
Lopresti both nudged me to read some of his Discworld books. Pratchett once
said that the only writing superstition he had was that he “must start a new
book on the same day that I finish the last one, even if it’s just a few notes
in a file. I dread not having work in progress.”
And
so, I do. The best way to combat the fears that creep into a void is to avoid
the void. I’ll spend a little time today typing on the next book in the series.
I
also take heart from something I read in the foreword to Of Mice and Men.
In his journal, Steinbeck wrote:
“It
is strange how this goes on. The struggle to get started. Terrible. It always
happens…I am afraid. Among other things I feel that I have put some things
over. That the little success of mine is cheating.”
If
a Nobel Laureate can be plagued by bouts of self-doubt, I think it’s okay for
the rest of us too. I’ll type something, just to prove I can.
And
celebrate The Firefall. I’ll spend a little time doing that too.
*****
It’s
been a good month for writing. Besides the novel, my short story, "Masterpiece," is a finalist for a Derringer Award. That’s an excuse for another round.
Until
next time.
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